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[64th]

Like it's all been bottled inside and suddenly it's exploded and spilled out all these issues you didn't know you had?

[dreamsallotted]

Yeah, that's it exactly.

[64th]

I feel like that sometimes. It's scary, isn't it?

[dreamsallotted]

Very. Pretending is so much easier.

[64th]

It all comes out eventually. You can't keep it all inside forever. And if you try it'll kill you from the inside out.

[dreamsallotted]

So just...what? let it out? stop pretending?

[64th]

I wouldn't recommend just letting it out anywhere and everywhere, no. but it'd be good to talk about or.... I don't know, write in a journal if you don't feel like talking?

[dreamsallotted]

I think I'd prefer to hit things but....maybe I could try talking.

[64th]

You might as well try the non-violent method first.

[dreamsallotted]

I suppose so. Thanks Cash.

[64th]

Do you want to tell me about it?

[dreamsallotted]

Tell you what? How I stupidly left home when I was thirteen to run away with my boyfriend and ended up surrounded by monsters? How I stupidly trusted him and he abandoned me?

Let's talk about how he killed my best friend and I had to clean up the mess and the body? How about how I got stuck here and killed for no reason? And the only one I fucking called was him.


[Yes Cash. Seel is 58 and still upset about his first boyfriend dumping him at 12.]

[64th]

Do you think your life would have gone differently if you hadn't run away with him?

[dreamsallotted]

Very. I'd probably be dead. But that doesn't mean I forgive him.

[64th]

You don't have to forgive, but you can't let it weigh you down forever.

[dreamsallotted]

I know. Every time I try to move on, I find I can't. I want too. It should be easier when he's not around, right?/font>